I don't get it

OK so I'm really pissed off right now. I have to wonder if the gods are messing with me, or if my perception is so out of whack that I have fucked with my own universe. people are ignoring me again. I hate life. I hate this life. If people are done with me, then fuck it all they need to let me know, so I can't move on. This is lasted longer then I thought that it would. Maybe that's saying something. anyway, I think that I need to seek a higher source in the hopes that I can find some direction. Death to the world I want to die. lalalalala