dying, death, and dead

I had to kill my cat, my SO's grandmother died. so much lost in my life, in such a little time.I'm too hurt and ashamed to even turn to the stars for guidance. What am I going to do?

Stick it out and bite hard

I'm biting my tounge really hard right now ... all I wanto od is talk back to her, just asks her the same question again and she if she blows up. it would be so much fun ... I know I'm only being extra melisious, because she treats me like shit. Tough shit woman, you hate what I am, then I'll just hate you. I'm good at that

Well at least I tryed

And that's what matters right? well it should ... I tryed to get my paper done, but I really don't think I'll get even one more word written tonight. I thinkI'll got to be and try to wake up an hour early .... if I fall back asleep ... then it'll just be one day late. Given the hell I have put myself (and others) through over this paper, that really doesn't seem too bad.

Again With the stupid everything

Alright I don't even like spider man, but I like the layout of this site, so I'm hoping to revamp it at some point.

However, Considering I can't even find the gumption to start (let alone finish) my school work... Namely this paper that is due on the 15th ... I don't see how/when I'll start vamping this site.

It's sick that I don't even have the will to procrastinate.