Exams are Looming!!!

Instead of studying for finals, what about just going to the Bahamas and catching some rays? Maybe you'll flunk, but you might have flunked anyway; that's my point.
Jack Handy
American writer and cast member of Saturday Night Live from 1991-2003. Famous for his Deep Thoughts comedy sketches.

Francey Free Designs

Francey Free Designs

I thought I got it

You know it doesn't really bother me too much if he doesn't care, about some dumb day. But when he tells me that it is important and he does care, I get it in my head that I need to make it special (that sounds odd, but whatever) ... I guess I'm feeling rather ambivalent about it.

so I think it's not a big deal, then he tells me that it his, so I get that in my head. However, he has spent the last few days ignoring every suggestion I have made, or if he doesn't ignore it he will not help me act on it. And everything I get to think that he doesn't give 2 hoots about it, and I get the idea that nothing is going to happen this year, he gets all upset, and tells me how important it is.

One week that's it... That's all the time we have. No place is called, no gifts made, bought, thought of etc. No other plans. This is the last week of school, so things are hellish. Trying to make something this special at the last moment is so not going to work.

Of all the things in my life, this should be something to look forward to ... End of classes, the person I might marry someday, that I'm love with .... And it's giving me grey hairs, wrinkles, anger, tears, and chest pain.

DAMN MY LIFE TO FUCK!!!!

I make people unhappy

No, things aren't going the times when I SHOULD be spilling my guts, I can't seem to find any words but then again I have never been very good at the "therapy" thing. However there have been 2 deaths in my life since last Thursday, school is stressing me out, had a funeral Today and got an F on a paper ... And I have exam issues almost 12 hours in one day. I have 2 papers due in 8 and 12 days respectively. Last day of classes is just over one week away, I have another paper due just over one week away, 5 years with pat is just over one week away. My mother is going off the deep en. I work every weekend at my busiest school time. I'm not sure I'll have enough money for next semester. I hate that I couldn't afford one of the books for my class this semester, and I need it badly for finals ad next semester. I'm just.... Well I'll be jiggered I can't even think of the "right" emotion. But if I told this to real people I'd just bum them right out. The only good thing is that it makes random chatter fly away quick.